Yes, talking to myself, feeling down, feeling old as I sit here in the cabin watching the storm roll in over the mountains. Feeling alone isn't new, Alone and I have become old friends. Feeling down isn't new either, as being Bi-polar provides plenty of 'feeling down', along with other challenges, which is probably the reason Alone and I are such dear friends. Few manage to stay around for long, but the few that have are all great people. "You cannot run away from me!" is what I heard the other day on the phone, and my reply was, "I stopped trying to run away from you, that's why I decided to marry you." No, I'm not really married, she's already married, but we share something special so I'm her G'usband and she's my G'wife. I'll never be sure of why such an amazing woman supports me, even when my moods are uncontrollable.
Hangin' around, nothing to be but frown. Yes, just hanging around wondering when I reached this place and doubting if the smiles will return. I've always enjoyed rainy days as the darkness is something I'm comfortable with, not to mention I enjoy the feel of the rain on my skin, how it glistens and pools together, and the fact that I can do my crying in the rain without anyone knowing.